wake up, the sun is beautiful
Hello from the fair state of Oregon, where there is no traffic, everyone complains about the 8 minute commute to the big town, and you don’t have to pump your own gas!
Pace of life here is kind of slow and since I haven’t started school yet I’m finding it difficult to drag my ass out of bed in the morning. My living situation is delightful, I’m currently occupying a studio apartment above my uncles house, which works for me because it’s like living alone except without the fear of rabid burglars. I’m about a 3 minute drive from my parents place right now but they just bought a new house with property which will be a little further but still completely reasonable.
Right now my biggest complaint is that I’m bored. I’ve made a couple aquaintances, but making friends is as hard or harder than building romantic relationships. I find myself second guessing when I should call or text because I don’t want to sound clingy. I don’t doubt my social skills, merely my bonding skills. Everyone assures me it will come with time.
So far I don’t miss “home” as much as I expected to. It does give me the slightest pang when I hear my friends have all gone to Pasadena, or when my best friend sends me update after update regarding her upcoming nuptials. For the most part though, I’m fine being here and I’m finding that when I do go out, it’s a good time. I mean really, drinking with good people is the same in all 50 states.
I got a bartending/serving gig on my fourth day here but I haven’t started full time yet which is definately contributing to my boredom. I think once my life starts to flesh out a bit I will probably wish I had less going on but that’s kind of how it always is. I am really enjoying spending time with my mom and brothers… and even larry sometimes.
Since being here I’ve tied up a lot of my loose ends with people, I have a bad habit of leaving things open ended. I’m also finding my stress level here is very low, perhaps because I’ve put a very healthy level of distance between myself and the things/people who were causing me grief.
I hope things continue in this fashion.
